Can’t believe it’s already fall and the end of september… The fake weekend of summer went by and today is a gloomy rainy day…
The past few months went by so quickly yet so slow… This summer i’ve accomplished so much yet at the same time it seems that i haven’t completely moved on… i’ve done so much outdoorsy activities… surfing, hiking, camping, bbq-ing, chilling with my bestest(s)… I feel like i’ve gotten a new lease on life… i’ve becoming the person who i used to be yet somewhat also different… I like being able to chill and just soak up the sun… being social-able… not being tied down with negative people and thoughts is a great feeling… because over time those things just rub off on you in all the wrong ways… you start becoming more grumpy and less approachable… you start finding flaws in things that are really unimportant… you become unattractive… i like being around people that can feed happy vibes… that are just silly and can goof around… it’s been awhile since i’ve laughed so much… my friends and family are the best… i can not thank them enough for helping me pull thru my darkest moments… and help rebuild a part of me that was buried…
There’s also a part of me that i hope to compartmentalized because at the oddest times, it still really bugs me… it still really makes me sad… it still really makes me feel dumb… Sometimes when i think, ‘ok, today i can move on…’ or that i thought i’ve moved on, let go… somehow it just creeps back in… i don’t understand why it had such a profound impact… but i think it’s improving… time will make it less acute… it’s not something i will forget nor something that i want to forget… it just needs to be locked up in a vault… In His Time…
sometimes we have to forget about what we don’t have, and focus on what we do have…
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